I have thought about writing. I have thought of closing the blog. why? I don’t seem to say anything. I tend to observe and take everything in. I dislike confrontation and will run and hide from it. My nature, my upbringing and something E has worked on with me for a while.
I miss E. I haven’t been in to a session with her in ……… I cannot remember when. We have touched base by phone and she has suggested that I find a new therapist. Really?!?! She doesn’t have weekend hours anymore and trying to make it into Boston from the North Shore by train (got to park the car, well, first you have to find a lot that has a parking spot). She has suggested Thursdays but with my work schedule (work nights) that makes for a very long and draining day to begin with that trying to go into work is another issue all together.
I have been dragging my feet on that. I like E, I am comfortable with her. She knows when I am talking bullshit and when I just need to vent and get everything off of my chest. I took grief from people because 1)she is an adoptive parent and 2)she worked for the agency. But I was comfortable.
The visit with Supergirl was AWESOME It was short but you know what — I didn’t care. I was with my girl. She was with me. The only down spot. She asked about Biker Boy. She wants a picture, a recent one. So I asked him for one. He has ignored me. The kicker: I came across some photos of his son, probably when he was about 3 years old. I sent him a message asking him what he wanted me to do with them He has ignored me. I will tell Jessica this when she is older. I did tell Amom that I requested a photo from Biker and that he ignored me.
Oh well his loss.
Now time to enjoy this little shiny thing in the sky