The secret is done

There isn’t another way to put it.

M’s son graduated from preschool last night and there goes my tie to Supergirl.  Well, one of my ties.  She only ran into Supergirl once.  I told her not to search her out.  I told her to just let it happen.  And it did.  There was the 1 run in.  I wrote that conversation down and I hold onto it dearly.

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I received some new pictures of Supergirl and she is just too cute for words.  I told my SIL and she took a look and agrees, she looks like me.  Just like E looks like her.  I agree.

Therapist found someone who is willing to talk to me and to L and see what is and isn’t working in this so called open adoption.  C would talk to me and then talk to L and then we would all get together and discuss and talk and see what is working and what isn’t.

I am scared shitless.

There is no other word for it.  The last time that we had a meeting I was hit with the big “We are too busy” crap.

There isn’t any further back we can go, well only to semi and closed but there isn’t much more back we can go in the “open” we are in now.